The atmosphere around us is heavy,

This is hurt..

I want to escape,

but I want to be with him.

Suffocating.

alrahe

Where did I go wrong?

I lost a friend.

Somewhere along in the bitterness.

And I would have stayed up with you

all night.

A little time that you have,  
please give it to me. 
I hope you'll hurry to meet me.
This once, I beg of you. 
There's something I want to convey. 

One second waiting you here, 
feeling like all day. 
Many times I see the clock at hand, 
for the sake of killing time. 
I see no sign of your presence,
and it convinced me. 
That you will not come. 

Empty, dejected, and anger, 
all are in my mind.
It mark instantly, 
the mark of unrequited hearts, 
that have been hurt by your love. 
I want to be angry, to vent.
But I'm just alone here. 
I want to show to anyone.
That my heart is disappointed and broken.

I always get confused when i facing you. 

all my manipulative feeling,

my mischievous mind,

and my liar lip.

can't get through you. 

If you asking me, 

I'll honestly say what's the truth that dwell on my heart.

alrahe

Alone

I stand alone, decorated by loneliness

Watching my own reflection.

Pondering the right path that i try to choose.

A path that carries me to go far away.

From you who stopped trying to survive.

Nor to continue being with me, stay beside me.

Imagine

Imagine I'll disappear without return.

Never questioning again your love.

It may come to be nothing.

And no more meaning for me to yearn.

Now

Should we try to forget each other. 

Forget we ever together and what ever we share. 

I should have stopped to achieve that dream. 

Embrace my desire that you'll be back. 

When I try to achieve that dream, you always stop it.

Indeed, we will not be able to unite, my premonition.

alrahe

Q: Why you running away from them?

Me: I think everything scared me, every darkness freaking me out. Human soul was really fit into a darkness. I'm just afraid they turn off my light instantly, and it suffocate me.

alrahe

Jauh jarak kutempuh untuk rasaku,

Tapi hanya ada resah dalam diri.

Selalu ada bayangmu menghiasi lamunku.
Kubenci tapi kumerindu dalam hati.

Yang pernah singgah dalam perasaanku.
Kumenjadi munafik berupaya berbaik hati.

Tapi naif, kufikir hanya aku bunga di hatimu.
Hingga kudisalahkan karena terlalu peduli.

alrahe

Sometimes, two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together. But sometimes, ego takes too much roles on people true feelings.

alrahe

The world is rotating, and i just sit here while wondering why i can feel it, or is it only my mind is spinning?

alrahe

*i'm hungry

I'm trying. 
But I always love the wrong people, 
or I love the right people wrongly. 

And things fall apart.
Is it because life is so hard to live on,
or because people are so difficult to understand?

alrahe

She's though, but she try to hide it. She's dificult. But if you make an effort, she's worth it. She's worth the effort. 

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We all have that one person that we'll always have feelings for, no matter what. Just one look and it takes you right back to those memories.

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I notice everything. And by everything I literally mean everything. I notice when someone stops hitting me up like they used to. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I notice when things cange, and when it's no longer the same. I notice every single little detail. I just don't say anything.

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Ora simpel. -_- ora seneng ngomong wae terus terang. Nesu ramudeng maksude opo, biasane sing nggregeli cah wedok iki kok... Asudahlah, sakarepmu. 

saya benci berharap pada manusia.

selalu berada diantara ada dan tiada.

seketika bisa menguap dalam asa.

sejalan dengan kemunafikan atas dogma.

seiring waktu yang bergulir tak terasa.

alrahe

Manusia sekarang kayak pohon pisang, 

Punya jantung tapi gak punya hati.

Tapi pohon pisang itu sangat berguna,

Dari dia hidup sampai mati berguna bagi orang lain.

Sedangkan kamu?

alrahe

Orang yang paling mengerikan adalah orang yang mata hatinya tertutup. Dia akan mencari simpul pembenaran diri atas asumsinya terhadap orang. Membentengi kesalahannya dengan menyalahkan orang disekitarnya.

alrahe

I liked you, but I'm so damn tired with your act.

It's all because you never state anything, 

you never desire me, 

you never try to meet me, 

now or 10 years ago when we still young.

Baby, I'm just a fool for you.

alrahe
a note for z

do I look like a sick person, why I always attract doctors.. -_-

when i say i care, deep down in my heart actually i don't fucking care.

:)

alrahe

Everything seemed calm on the surface at least.

alrahe

He: Are you disappointed with me?

Me: How could i be disappointed in you when i had no expectations from you?

alrahe

Blinded by fame, money, position, and egoism.

alrahe

Save my soul,

I already fallen into the darkness.

Once you give me a light,

I'll follow you anywhere you go.

Hug me until it break my bone,

so my heart can be saved.

Anyone who give me slightest kindness,

I will take it.

I don't give a damn about anything anymore.

Save me.

alrahe

aku tak tahu manakah lukamu?
kau melenggang dalam keangkuhan.
meninggalkan luka tertahan di hatiku.
aku tak berucap, hanya kuindahkan batin.
kesabaran akan berbuah manis dalam dukaku.
aku menunggu kau menemukan jalan.

alrahe

senja menanti malam:
ada rindu yang tertahankan,
apalah aku hanya seorang perawan,
masih terikat norma yang ditabukan,
malu mengejar cinta yang kau lupakan.

alrahe

Red Minj Ziel.

alrahe

I thought you are the one who can save me,

but in a minute you break my heart so easily.

Fine.

alrahe
a note for R

Anyone please save me. I feel suffocating.

All beauty fall to earth when I'm looking at your eyes. 

You look at me as if pearcing to my heart,

Maybe it seem you can see my heart.

I feel so weak when I be by your side.

Even if I can get away from you,

I just can't ever forget you.

I've been locked by your beautiful eyes. 

Once again if you looking me through your eyes,

I don't know what will happen to me.

Love,

why you torment me,

when my life is allright.

Love,

his eyes is so beautiful,

no one can replace it.

Love,

I just want one love,

loving me for loyalty.

alrahe

Allah SWT breaks my heart, to save me from them, because Allah SWT know I choose the wrong person, ikhlas, trust Your Lord, Your Lord will give you the best one. Allah SWT is The Greatest, and cares a lot for us, trust Allah SWT and you'll always be happy. :)

Listening a song from Shin Seung Hoon - I believe

Note:
You believe in destiny,
But you are running from it.
You not make a way to reach it.
You not forcing your emotion.
Your love is just an empty shell.
What a pity.

alrahe

hello rumors, you sound so crazy.

Don't judge my words.
You haven't met me.
Who do you think you are?
Are you good enough to judge me?
Life changes, and so the people.
I don't even feel the same also.
I just write my own words.
Well, human are my inspiration.
But it's all not about you.
So get over yourself.

alrahe

sing me a song and i'll love you the most.

alrahe

your voice is not ok, but this song is gonna be my favourite song.

alrahe

I'm gonna love you like a roler coaster, 

till the sun collapse, 

even when our the time is running out.

Sing you a love song each night,

to thank you for so many things in this world.

When you far away from me,

I hope you will be alright.

This world is full of lie,

I'll be the one that you need.

To cover your ears from hurt,

to protect your soul from the emptiness.

I've been so hurt so many times,

I only hope I'll make you happy.

alrahe

Hari ini tidak hujan sayang,
Kemarin pun tidak, bahkan aku sangsi esok akan turun hujan. 
Rasanya kering sayang,
Sungai di hatiku mengering karena rasa rindu.
Kenangan kita akan masa lalu, masa muda yang singkat.
Mengingat yang dulu membuatku merasa tua, jiwaku menua.

alrahe

Semua note hari ini kutujukan untuk lelaki masa depanku.

Aku akan mencintaimu karna Allah SWT.
Allah yang akan mengirimkanmu bersemayam di hatiku.
Mengisi anak-anak kita dengan cinta dan harapan dariNya.
Aku akan mencintaimu seperti aku mencintai senja.
Cintaku menjadi sederhana dengan tidak memandang dunia.
Karna kita akan hancur jika mengenggam dunia di hati kita.
Dimana kita terlalu terdistorsi dengan kecantikan dan kemewahan.
Biarkanlah mereka yang beretorika, berkutat dengan keraguan.
Kita akan tetap melangkah dengan pasti,
Meski harus berdampingan dengan paradigma dunia yang tak pasti.

alrahe

cinta itu pasang surut, tapi tak pernah kering.

senja temaram, 

surya tenggelam, 

mega menghitam, 

menyambut sang malam, 

langit melukis kelam.

memandang rembulan, 

mendengar tiupan angin,

melagukan simfoni dalam kerinduan,

bintang berkedip mesra, 

keraguan akan masa yang semakin menua,

Tapi aku tetap masih menantimu cinta.

alrahe

sejak saat itu, aku terlanjur mencintaimu, melepaskan emosi ini dan membiarkannya menguap tak mudah bagiku, terlambat untukku pergi, terlambat untukku berpura-pura, bahwa namamu tak pernah ku tulis di senja sore itu.

alrahe

Since that time, I already love you, to let go these emotions and let it evaporate is not easy for me, too late for me to go, too late for me to pretend that I never wrote your name in that evening twilight.

alrahe

Being calm and being nonchalant are two different things, but people in the surface can never know it.

Perasaan manusia itu inspirasi, untuk membuat kata-kata, kita harus mendalami perasaan itu.

kenapa anda masih stalking sayah.. -_- 

kan udah sepakat over.. -_-

udah dimaafin juga.. -_-

kok masih kepo yaa.. -_-

ngek ngok.. -_-

-_______-

If we met?

Maybe I'll fall, 

but you won't catch me. 

I'll be so doomed.

alrahe
a note for z

dimana surgaku?
berapa lama lagi akan kutempuh perjalanan?
sampai saat aku lelah dan terdiam.
dan aku mulai meratap merasa kesepian.
tapi tertawa saat orang menoleh.
dimana letaknya? dan akankah itu abadi?
atau itu hanya kiasan seperti ilusi yang ternafikan.

alrahe

kau dan aku mungkin tak ditakdirkan untuk bersua,

biarkan gelora meraja, rindu merebak, rasa menggema,

cinta di hati terbekas selamanya menjadi hampa.

alrahe
a note for R

para supplier, janjimu palsuu.. -_-

Sekaya apapun dirimu, 

Semandiri apapun dirimu. 

Jika kau gores hati orang tuamu. 

Surga bukan milikmu. 

Sampai kapan kau menyakiti hati surgaku?

Ah, akupun sering lakukannya, menyakiti surgaku.

Dan selalu menyalahkan ketidakdewasaanku.

Entahlah, semakin dewasa semakin aku tak mengerti.

Manusia memiliki berbagai rencana tak kumengerti.